OMG!!!

     I've got some things to talk about tonight, but first...food!

     You already know what I had for breakfast, snack and lunch today because that was ready and in the fridge when I went to bed last night. Linsey had dance class after school today and Regan was having a major temper tantrum AND my kitchen is a DISASTER so to actually cook dinner would have required cleaning my kitchen first. I have had one of the most trying and exhausting days and did not have the energy to cook so...we ordered Dominos. I don't feel guilty about it because it was a small pizza, thin crust and had mushrooms and pineapple. I also sliced up two super sweet honey crisp apples for the girls and I to share as well as carrot sticks. Not the best dinner, but far from the worst we could have had. Jason will be working really late tonight and he's got left overs from dinner last night to munch on when he gets home.

Now, on to my rant...

     I'm so frustrated right now I can barely speak let alone type out coherent sentences that actually get my point across.! (I'll manage somehow!) I'm ready to do nothing else but go to be;: however, Linsey and Regan are no where near ready for bed and it would be completely unfair to them if I went. They're only kids and want attention from mommy regardless of what kind of day I've had.
     It all started at around 7:45 this morning when I realized my co-worker had a shitty attitude! It's frustrating trying to get across to people that when you're kids are sick they want their MOMMY (especially when these people have kids) and Daddy just isn't the same. The truely frustrating part is that I work at Regan's school. They're supposed to be the most understanding when it comes to kids being sick because we deal with it ALL the time, but (oddly enough) they seem to be the LEAST understanding. I have vacation time so what's the problem?
     My daughter's are more important to me than my job and if staying home with them when they're sick jeopardizes it in some way...I DON'T CARE! I have a goal. It's good to have goals. Right?
     The other issue that is making me crazy right now is insurance. I work full time and cannot afford to add my daughters onto my plan. It would take HALF of my monthly income to cover them and I already pay the other half in tuition (when I can) for Regan to be there WHILE I'm working. So (not being too proud for assistance) I applied for medicaid. We were told that we make too much money (we bring home $3200 a month for a family of 4) to qualify for the free plan, but we can get a 'premium' plan for $85 a month. FINE. Sign me up...at least the girls are covered. BUT WAIT...we can't use the card (which is in my wallet) until we make our first 'premium' payment and we can't do that until we get the proper paperwork in the mail, sign it and mail it back! In the meantime, Linsey and Regan have both been sick (luckily it was treatable at home) and I can't take them to the doctor unless I want to pay out of pocket and HOPE to get reimbursed.
     I am disgusted in the system that we currently have. I can get more help from our government if I quit my job and sit at home on my lazy ass then I can as a full time worker with a 'regular' job! It's highly disturbing and quite upsetting to me as a mother and as an American. Do we value the family at all anymore? Do we really want the family unit to be taken care of or is it that we want certain family units to be taken care of and the rest of us can 'fend for ourselves'?
     I pray everyday that President Obama follows through with all the promises and ideas that I voted for when I voted for him. I hope he remembers that there are regular families suffering who may not be at or below poverty level, but certainly aren't rich either. There is a middle class that is hard working, trying to provide a good life for their children and want nothing more than peace of mind and NOT a piece of the pie.